Really.

Currently Listening:
Neon
John Mayer
Where The Light Is (Live In Los Angles)

I wish I could just start this whole year over.

It's been really hard but just to change that one thing I said, so we'd still be good friends would be worth it.

So on a less depressing but still depressing note, I'm competely overwhelmed.
I have the scholarship to practice for
I have sunday worship and practice
youth worship and practice
and RHOP set
I have to fix my car sense it got sideswiped intensely.
I have school and graduating a year early and it's fun-ness
I have stuff to do at home.
and appearently my parents still want me to get Eagle
My lung is now fully healed but I still get pains when stressed out, nervous, and I can't do anything to active.
aaannnnnd I'm switching back to my old medication due to the new medications epic fail.

And all of this would be much easier to bare but there are two things that just kill me.
A. My parents don't aknowledge a single thing I do and just focus on the bad that happens. All I want them to say is "Good Job" that's it.
That's it.
But they don't know those words.
and you already know B.

But unfortuntely I can't restart this dreadful year. So I gotta make do and get by. I'll make it through this long rough season.
Hopefully I'll make it through okay.


Geh, why do I always know the exact thing I shouldn't say.
Then say it.

I think it's time to go to bed.

Oh how long, how long, how long?
How long before I burn away?

+Taylor+

Recent Happenings.

Currently Listening
The Scene and Herd
The Birds and The Bee Sides
Relient K

So lately I've been up to a LOT musically. Even though I was sick for two weeks. I manage to come across the oppertunity to snag a little 4,000$ scholarship for Drumming and knowing a little theory. Which is pretty rad. THUSLY. My drum set has been pimped out.
New kick head so my kick sounds RAD
New 3ply snare head so my snare sounds SEXY.
and then two toms and my crunkadelic high hats and ride.
So I'm pretty happy.
But that doesn't come with a price. Cause I'm definitely practicing EVERY day again, along with my youth practice's, RHOP, sunday practice's, and sunday worship. So It's intense, but so worth it. It's so rad to see how God's opened all these doors one by one when I thought all of mine were closed shut.
He's a pretty rad guy ya know?
hah.

In other news I have a new song "in the works". I unfortunately can't record drums, so I just did an Acoustic Version with bassing. And pentatonically solo'd my way into the stratosphere, leaving mere mortal bass's behind :P.
So yes it's call Love Or Logic. The basic jist of the lyrics is irony haha. Even though it's not evident. But it's about using your head when you have the chance to persue a relationship instead of your heart.
Which is what I've done pretty much forever. Cept once recently. But then they did what I usually do.
Hence the Irony haha. But anyways I dig it. It's on a alverez twelve string guitar with a musicman bass through a carvin amp with an swr head. So thusly it sounds WICKED : D.

It'll be up by next week cause I still gotta do vocals when I'm not sickly like.

To end I'll post the lyrics.

Love Or Logic
By Taylor Fine
You Got Me Spinin’ Around and Around
I don’t know if I should analyze this or let it down
But I don’t want to give up on what I said
I don’t want to leave us for dead
But time ain’t on our side
You’ve got feelings tryin to hide
But just let them go
Oh
Just let your heart take over your head
Tradin’ love for logic is like tradin life for death
I don’t wanna say goodbye
I just want you to say you love me one more time
One More Time
You say you don’t want us to get hurt
My dear you’re being much to careful with your words
And I don’t need space
All need a touch of your grace
I want you to know I never could hate you
And I need you to believe it when I say I love you

Oh
Just let your heart take over your head
Tradin’ logic for loves like tradin life for death
I don’t wanna say goodbye
I just want you to say you love me one more time
One More Time
Love or logic? (repeat)
(I’ll go either way)
(But please listen when I say)
Choose Wisely Baby.

Just let your heart take over your head
Tradin’ logic for loves like tradin life for death
I don’t wanna say goodbye
I just want you to say you love me one more time
One More Time

Bloomin'

Currently Listening:
Red Hands
Act II: The Meaning of & All Things Regarding Ms. Leading
The Dear Hunter

Well the new semester has finally gotten underway. I'm fully "in the grind" with my class times and schedules. And I'm extremely excited about the prospect that this is my last semester in high school and in Roseville California.
At the same time I'm scared to death about moving away to LA. Due to the fact I've never even moved in my entire life. And have gone to the same church stream for 11 years........
It's a bit of a
JUMP.

haha but that's okay makes things more interesting ya know?

In other news. My dad just acquired us a 12 string alverez that looks and sounds BEAUTIFUL.
I already got a raaaaad chord progression that is beggin for lyrics.
I'm not sure what subject to write on yet, but that's okay. I still have to finish recording vocals for Tethers.

And I've been meaning to do that sense the week after the whole "Lung" thing haha.

Thank God for getting me out before christmas. That whole experience really showed me how faithful God is.

Hallelujah to that sukkas.


Now it's time to hit up "the screwtape letters", finish my delicious Bloom Coffee, and then hang out with TJ YELLEK(aka jt kelley)

Can you dig it?

+Taylor+

Block.

Currently Listening:
Daughters
Where The Light Is (Live In L.A.)
John Mayer

I've hit a writers block musically.
Not lyrically, cause I just wrote lyrics to a song that are pretty good.
But musically.

hmmmm...

I do not like this. Lets hope I can get some ideas soon.
I believe!

P.S Anybody who's anybody should get "where the light is" by john mayer.
AMAZING.
endofstory.

+Taylor+

To Emmah.

Currently Listening:
Into The Night
A Beautiful Life
Mumsdollar

Yes your name shall always be spelled that way. I hope you've learn to cope with that by now. And yes I still listen to that song. It's a fav.
Anyway,
Because of you I'm getting six hours of sleep of which I'll probably wake up in before I play three church services + practice spanning from 7-3.
I'm also intensely sore from snowboarding with you and with my gimp lung.
I'm not getting a chance to shower tomorrow morning.
I'm also in debt of one jam session
And I'm bone broke.

I'll miss you like hell lass haha, life's more interesting with lack of sleep and good times, is what I always say.

Now it's time for dreamy dreams

G'night all.

+Taylor+

E Minor

Currently Listening:
All Is Full Of Love
The Stability E.P.
Death Cab For Cutie

You know that feeling you get right before you just give up? That feeling of persiverence? That feeling that conincides with all your warning lights and signs? It's one of those feelings I normally listen to and heed. Cause in the end it works out. But I am not quite sure if I will this time. Cause frankly, I'm though with this. I definitely don't call this working out.

Some call it setting your self apart and a "'blessing".
I call it fear mixed with bad luck and a sick sense of divine comedy. Welcome to reality kids.

All is full of love
You just ain't recieving
All is full of love
But your phone is off the hook
All is full of love
But your doors are all shut
All is full of love.....

Porcelain.

Currently Listening:
Porcelain
Play
Moby


Well tomorrow I am finally off "Lung Lockdown" as I like to call it.
Bittersweet though due to the fact I have an appointment with my Psychiatrist Dr. Hendren.
Whom I haven't been to in three years.
Btw if you forgot or are unaware I have a mild cause of Aspergers Syndrome. Which is a form of autism and I take madication for it.
I've been taking the same stuff for about five years and it works perfect and my body has come acustomed to it.
Unfortunately, it has side effects. These are always being Tired. (Which I always am) and Crappy memory. (Which I have). So I it's bittersweet but I'm okay with it.
Tomorrow I go in and we are going to "evaluate" me. Which alone freaks me out.
And then most likely change my medication which freaks me out alot. Cause that means a "switch" which includes getting off my current and getting on a new one. This usually involves fun stuff like withdrawls and freaking out body. Not excited at all.
And really really really apprehensive about it. Cause I have a hard enough time with missing two doseages (which is just one day. I take one in the morn and one at night)
So please pray it all goes smoothly.

God, I'm done with Doctors; first a tube and now this.
Hah, I think I'm good for the rest of 2009 on the whole doctor thing ya know?

Now for some great insomnia and moby to calm my thoughts.
Custom westone in-ears anyone?
Yes me please : ).

Music On World Off

+Taylor+